I feel sick and hot and tired. I'm at this boutique and it's okay but it's hot. I really don't understand who I am and I'm so lonely. How do people find love? I don't know - I don't know - I need some water I think. If I knew who I was I could find someone. What? I don't believe in God anymore - not like that. In a different way - it's sad. I'm so fucking hot and I'm not funny anymore. My funny died with my belief in God.