Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Ohhh - and I didn't get to say good-bye. I just missed him. They said he asked for me too. Awwww - do you know he wasn't even my real Grandfather? He married my Grandmother when my father was 12 and she had 2 kids. He was the only Grandfather I knew - I mean - he was my Grandfather and my father called him Dad. Awww - poor guy. But he died warm in a bed and with people visiting him everyday and he lived in his own house until he was 92. Pretty amazing right? So anyway - such is life. This wasn't nearly as hard as when my Grandmother died - I mean he looked like an elf at Thanksgiving - it was clear he wasn't doing so well. This seemed to be harder on my father for some reason. Maybe because Gramps wasn't nearly the ball buster my Grandma was. So - well - so that was sad. We went to the freezing cold beach yesterday and had a nice little dinner - then I went to bed at 9:30 so I could get up and be back here for the store. You know the new year is coming in and if I could really just let go of some more resentments that would be amazing. I'm so resentful of working here - which is crazy. Or not - who knows. I got on the train at &:20 this morning so I rode along the shoreline as the sun came up and when I tell you it was beautiful - it does not even do it justice. Shockingly beautiful. Even though I kept singing out "Cuuuunt!" "Cuuuunt!!" because some woman bowled me over to get the seat with the table. Hello - there were exactly 4 of us getting on the train there was no need for running overness. So I just kept singing that out to her and it made me feel better. Sort of. It also made me feel like a completely out of control douche and it made me just WISH that I could not CARE that SHE was a douche. Let's get back to the shoreline. The train rides along Long Island sound and because it's so cold out and it was so early - the light off the water was sooooo pretty and so simple. I would see this beautiful marsh with little patches of water and one bird just flying around off the water. Or a larger body of water, the marsh and 5 birds. Clouds, sun , crisp air - amazing. How is it so beautiful to me? I just absolutely love it. "Cuuuunt!" On another note - I hosted that show on Sunday night and it was great - wait - did I write about that already? I love you Bluebie. Let's have fun, and dance in 2014!!