Sunday, December 15, 2013
More stew, more perception.
Larni made me laugh so hard today at work I got my period - a day early! What the fuck? Anyway - it was an okay day - I still love this job one million times more than the other waitressing job but I'm over being poor - I mean I am OVER IT. That being said - I worked hard, went to a meeting and then went to Whole Foods and got stuff to make lentil, sweet potato stew in my crock pot. I came home and made it! I even did the dishes and took out the garbage. So - so for less than the amount of money I paid for one order of stew from that place that always forgets my hot sauce - I just made enough stew for an entire week. I also wanted to have something for my friend who is a vegan now. I'm so tired. Ugh. I keep going. I got mad while I was making the stew but then I remembered I WANTED to make the stew - hello - and that I LOVE to cook. Then I was like - ugh this is so perception. I always think I'm a victim but hello - I am not. What? I'm so tired - I can't think straight. This is one thing I think for sure. I have to do my comedy differently. How? I don't know - things have to be different - I need to take a different road a different approach - I need a different perception for that also. So as an alcoholic I have a terrible perception of everything - like I guess if I were touching the elephant in the room I would always think I was touching the butt hole - right? Do you know what I'm talking about? Anyway - so whoa - my perception of my art also has been way off. Okay - well - I don't know. I mean I don't know. Yeah I said that 5 times. Do you know what's really weird? I have less neck wrinkles lately. I mean my neck looks different - less wrinkley. I don't know - I look less old - how crazy is that? It's amazing right? Is it not being up till 3 in the morning at the comedy club? Was the stress of it really so toxic that it gave me neck wrinkles or am I just more hydrated somehow? My eyes don't leak as much either. My eyes would leak so much the day after working there. Just really watery eyes - for houuurs. Good lord. Comedy party tomorrow night. Comedy Holiday party - I should go. Love you Bluebie bye.