Thursday, December 5, 2013
So grumpy - I feel so gross. I have an audition tomorrow - one I set up myself and now I wonder if I shouldn't have done that. I worked with my teacher - did I write about this already? I'm losing my mind. I feel gross - so bloated and gross and ALONE. FAT AND ALONE. UGH. I did just drink a lot of water - THAT SHOULD CHANGE EVERYTHING. Well - oh well - I guess dreary, dark, miserable, fat days happen. Okaaaay - so I need a meeting. I just can't stand how it smells anywhere. I think I'm going to move to California with one of my sisters. I'm so bored and I can't stand how this city smells anymore and nothing is happening here for me. I mean I guess I have to accept I'm not going to get to have children - okay - fine - I need to stop writing - I'm seriously - a wreck right now. Bye Bluebie - I love you.