Thursday, December 19, 2013
Well - I don't know.
Maybe I shouldn't write right now - I feel so vulnerable. What? I do. It was such a hard day which seems ridiculous - I just sit there all day at the store and basically do nothing. I cleaned up - I straightened things out - I ate, I drank water and tea. I wrapped the kids presents and I talked to my parents. I told my Father I forgot my phone at home and he said "Well I called you twice and you should know - no one answered your phone at home." Ha - that made me laugh. That and my Mother telling me she watched Inglorious Bastards and that Brad Pitt "Is actually kind of sexy." HA - omg - yeah - kinda. She said "Well I never really thought of him like that before." Hahahaaa - that really made me laugh. I'm SO SAD I'm not going home for Christmas I want to vomit. Lord - I got sooo sad today that I almost - I'm not going to write about it. I'm just not giving it any power. I went that Big Book meeting again and I felt better afterwards - I really did. It has some of the cutest guys at that meeting! Lord. Well I don't know - I just went to look at my friend who stayed over - her friends facebook page and she has unfriended me - her friend. What? I mean does this even make sense - I've never even MET her and my feelings are hurt. Haha - I laughed a little. I'm so fucking tender - TENDER. Self-centered? Tender. Overly sensitive? Tender. I need to go now - I have so much to do tomorrow. Love you Bluebie - how do you stay so true??