Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Okay - this day got better.
I woke up after a horrible drinking dream that just went on and on - and it was like a dream in a drea - awful. I was sad - it's the anniversary of the awful thing and - well - that was so hard. It's still hard I just somehow got my shit together enough to do a LOT of recovery work and I took care of myself - drank a ton of water and listened to 2 phone meetings and I am going to go to one meeting as soon as I get out of work. I'm going to go home after that and cook some food and rest. Get my shit together. Get a good night's sleep. Okay - so that's all. I was so, so, sososoooooo grateful to have this job to wake up for today. To get clean and showered for, and out of the house. What a blessing. You know it was freezing today and I was like "Oh boy - I better wear those big ugly pants with tights underneath them - I'm cold and I feel gross." Then at the last minute I put on tights - STILL and cute pants. I mean I almost made the CHOICE to choose pants that would make me feel like crap. Do you know what else? THESE PANTS ARE WARMER TOO. Weird. So weird. Anyway - whatever - I don't know anything I'm just so glad I'm not drinking right now and not planning on it later. Love you Bluebie - stay true to you - haha - bye.