Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Moving day and new goals.
Moving day for him not me - I resigned my lease and now - NOW I'm gonna get TO IT. First of all - let's see - he is moving today. He came here to work yesterday and then went with me to the bank and walked me to my big meeting. All of this of course was a blast. How insane is that? Ugh - I have so back peddled as far as breaking up with him. Banana Rama was playing while he was here and I was telling him about their video and that stupid dance they do in the video so I did it for him and he was like "Um - is it weird that I just got a half-erection from that?" HILARIOUS. If you have ever seen that video for "Cruel Summer" and that completely not sexy dance that they do - it's sigh - so funny. Now since I wrote that I feel like it's going to be a cruel summer for me. WE LAUGH SO MUCH WHAT THE FUCK - fuck - fucking fuck. There is just no way I can date someone else - or - I have no idea. I like the fucking douche bag. Whatever - but here's the thing - oh boy - creepy post office worker - creeeeep - he has a limp and smiles like he is so kind and he makes my shoulder blade feel funny - ew. Okay - fuck - I'm all fucked up today. This is the thing - I am going to super focus on my career, (hobby lol?), my health, my getting a new job and what else? I need to change my diet - I'm doing this 21 day diet. He said he would give me a present if I get on stage and do comedy again. He is manipulating me to do something good for myself. Fucking jerk. My program - I'm going to focus on my program. I have work to do here right now - put these earrings into the computer - VERY SERIOUS. I'm so uncomfortable. What do I want? I mean - what is going on? It's like he's my boyfriend again and that doesn't seem fair to me. I mean - I don't know - right? This is so profound - I'm exhausted. It's so nice outside today thank GOD. What? Bye Bluebie - I love you.