I'm writing here before I write in my journal in the hopes of being more authentic. Why more authentic - how about just authentic? I saw the cutest guy at work last night and he said hi and I turned beet red. Isn't that fun? I'm serious too - it was ridiculous but it was fun. I certainly do not lack in attraction to men. So even though I'm not with one - at least I know I like them - a lot - and a lot of them. I feel a llittle exhausted today - work was so busy and so hot last night. But it was better - much better. I am reading Writing Down The Bones and I feel like it's inspiring me. Oh dear - this feels authentic but boring. Oh well - I suppose a healthy life is boring sometimes - hopefully. I'm having coffee, my sponsor called me and sounded okay - so I will call her later. Did I say on here how we got into a - I don't now what you would call it. A tiff? Who cares - I did what I never do which is let it go for a couple of days. Who knew that that is the right thing to do sometimes. Not in a fuck you kind of way either - just in a "This is only going to be explosive so let's let it go until some of the fire goes out of it." Fire isn't the right word - the negative energy? The combative energy. There we go. Jesus. Gotta gooooo Bluebs - my computer isn't working well right now - this is super frustrating.
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