Wednesday, April 2, 2014
Well the good thing is I'm freaking out.
I am so tired suddenly right now and I'm going to my dance class and I am wondering why in the world I would want to do that? I am so over heated right now it's INSANE and I have no idea why. I have pms. That's why. Lamest mystery solved. Holy fuck I need to go for a walk. I am having some green tea. What else? I spent hours talking to the guy yesterday - hours. What should I call him? Doesn't he need a name? Did I give him one already? Why is it suddenly SO fucking hot in here - holy fucknuts. Okay - overall I feel better because I have gone to a meeting everyday since Sunday. I just need to go to a meeting everyday - that's it. Maybe I am poisoned from the guy painting in here at the store. I have heat, paint poisoning. I am saying how great I feel and then complaining - right - RIGHT ON. Okay anyway - I'm so crazy for this guy and I feel like "Leave me alone - come closer - stop paying attention to me - keep looking at me! Text me every second - go AWAY!!!" Now at this moment he is working and I'm so annoyed - meanwhile I am exhausted, sweating because I just realized the heat was on and what? WHAT???? I need to get some exercise and get OUT of here!!!! Jesus. I don't want to feel my feelings - I want HIM to feel my feelings!! Which is ALWAYS my problem. Thank GOD this guy doesn't live near me. Jesus. IM MY OWN PERSON. What??? Love you Bluebie BYE.