Wednesday, April 30, 2014
I'm so bored of having low self-esteem.
I'm not kidding - I'm over it - it's boring. I walked to that dance class tonight and it was fucking POURING rain out - I got completely soaking wet - right? So I take the class - cancel the writing so I could get home. The class was great - I'm out of shape and was hoping sex counted as exercise bt apparently it doesn't - because I am chubbs. So I got home and did my hair and my nails and now I'm feeling bad for myself that - what? I'm not skinnier - not on Saturday night live - not gay - whatever - right? And then I was like "OH MY GOD I AM SO BORED OF THAT!!" I really just fucking am! I am so bored of low self-esteem. Who does it help and who cares? I wan to grow. I just got sooooo fucking tired. Good night Bluebie.