Tuesday, April 29, 2014
I was so upset last night by the time I got done working at the restaurant 3 days in a row. Soooo tired - so unable to do anything else - no time for comedy I mean or anything creative. I just needed to get home an take care of myself. Anyway - I need another job and I need to be able to focus on my art. Or anything else. Ugh. It's the same thing - I feel trapped and - scared and like what the fuck am I doing? Nothing seems to be getting better or moving forward. However I cleaned last night, did laundry, went to a meeting, went to sleep on time and got myself to work. I was able to do my little nighttime routine of flossing and yoga also - which for some reason has alluded me lately. So I guess I just need to look for another job. That's all right - get out and look. Okay - alright - ugh. Love you Bluebie.