Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Still the same grumpy me.
Sooooooooooooo now I'm not a waitress anymore and I'm still grumpy - still feel uncomfortable in my body - blah blah blah. It's so weird - it's like when I moved out of the bed & breakfast and realized I brought myself with me - mostly my rage. I for sure have less of that and I do physically on a lot of levels feel SO MUCH better not waitressing. But there is a discomfort inside me - which I guess can only be solved by God. The program. Yeah. So. Sigh. I just can't figure out how to balance it all - exercise, clean clothes - clean house - clean soul. It's all so much WORK and I get so DISTRACTED taking pictures of myself. Okay - it's only another month and a half before I have my anniversary and then I think things will shift. I think I might need some chocolate. OH BOY - well these seem like such blessed complaints that I am making - right? I'm so happy to be sober - I feel so grateful. Love you Bluebie bye.