Called my friend and asked her what was going on with me. She said if I'm not okay with me - I'm not okay with this relationship. What? I mean - if 'm taking care of myself the whole time I will be okay and if I'm not - no matter what is happening with him - I won't be okay. Alright I can not think about myself for one more second - holy fucking selfish fuckballs. LOVE YOU BLUEBIE BYE.