After lots of talking and phone calls and not reacting to my feelings I am better today - although super bloated from the weekend of steak and cheese. Ugh. I'm listening to an alanon meeting.
I don't know - I just feel so grateful that I am in these programs - I really am. I just want to keep growing and being kinder to myself and others. I started to practice benevolence and I put it into my meditation this morning. So. One day at a time - how amazing how long these days are!! I mean yesterday I went to an eye appointment, worked (went to work before the appointment), went to a meeting, saw the guy, grocery shopped and what else? I don't know. I mean it is mind blowing to me that I do things. Have a day you know? Amazing. He is such a nice, sweet man. I feel so grateful for him. Man - I am so fucking bloated. OKAY I LOVE YOU BYE.