Tuesday, July 1, 2014
I'm not feeling great - my body is all fucked up - it smells like something died in my ass - I mean it's so gross- I'm very stressed out. Haha - oh GOD - what do I write these things for? I just don't understand how I can turn into SUCH a psycho when I get my period? Okay - well - you know - I guess it's just what happens and I'm human and I am doing the best I can. I really am. I need to keep focused on myself, my self-care and working these programs and taking care of my art. Slowly - a little bit everyday. Focus on love - that's it. Oh - it's so scary and I am so sick of being afraid. Oh well - and you know - I'm still so happy to be sober - even f feeling all of this is so - RAW. It just leaves me RAW. But it's okay - oh boy. Alright - well - it's okay. Love you Bluebie bye.