Sunday, August 19, 2018
Writing Real Quick
It's Sunday and I am here in my office while the guy runs to the store real quick. I had a nice day....did some yoga and stretching, then jogged a bit on the treadmill. Grocery shopped at Whole Foods and Shoprite and then came home and cooked. I love cooking on Sundays. I made some sweet potato chunks in the over with onion and fresh rosemary, baked regular potatoes, chicken with organic garlic and organic chipotle, a spinach salad with pepitas, roasted almonds, red onion and a homemade tahini dressing. I tried to make the sweet potatoes like the ones I ate at Organic Kitchen in the East Village. They came out really good but I think I used to much olive oil. They were a bit drier at Organic Kitchen. Then we had dinner and went to alanon. Is that fucking exciting or what? Ha - it felt good and healthy. I have an audition tomorrow and I am super tired but I think after a good night's sleep it will be okay. Have you ever had a Lilly bar?? I am eating one right now. They are chocolate bars sweetened with Stevia and they are amazing. Not too sweet - so so good. In fact this one is kind stale but it's still amazing! No weird after taste - just GOOD. I had diarrhea all morning - holy mother of God it was awful. No clue why. The perjeta still maybe? It's so scary - makes me so nervous I am sick still. I just am not sure. Or am I? I don't know. I don't feel as tired and awful as I did before I found out about the cancer but I am still so tired. I also drink gallons less coffee. Well anyway I just keep trying to take care of myself - inside and out. Be kind to my mind....rest, exercise, eat well - write in my journal - be honest, be kind to others but not be a doormat. Grow. I am trying to let myself grow and HEAL. Have balance. Self-esteem. Personal power. Yeah so anyway that is how I am moving forward and - and I don't know what.....living I guess. It might be a little boring but it's also profound and amazing. I have shows and auditions and stuff to keep my life exciting - my home life and everything in between can be this. And that's fucking fabulous. Byeeeee - eat a Lilly bar!