Tuesday, July 31, 2018
Laptops Work Better on My Lap
Just saying. Anyway I am so tired. I went back to work today with the kids - which was great - I missed them. I am however now exhausted. Which is okay except that I am terrified to be exhausted. I have so many fears now - two of them are stress and exhaustion. These things were so intense in my life before I found out I had cancer and they feel so bad in my body when they happen now. A little stress is exciting but too much and it feels toxic. So does being too tired. It's such a catch 22 with the tired though because if I'm not tired enough I don't go to sleep at night. Anyway right now I want to take a nap but it's 5:46 in the pm and that's nuts. No one takes a nap at 5:46 in the pm. So anyway....here I am - so sleepy and trying not to sleep. I went for a long walk this morning and I'm taking pretty good care of myself. I have other work to do. I love you Bluebiebye.