I'm so tired.

It's Sunday - I woke up and went to a meeting with a bunch of my sober "family."  It was a great meeting and I was so glad I made it there - right on time.  It was a long meeting - an hour and a half and then I came right back home, ate and took a  little nap.  I am so exhausted even though I got about 8 hours of sleep.  I got my period yesterday and I had a jewelry party.  It was super tiny and super stressful!  I can't believe how hard it is selling this jewelry.  You know - I don't even know if it is or not - I just get stressed out and it's a lot of work talking to people - even though in general the people have been SO NICE.  Okay but - and - huh?  Oh I know - I have my period and so I'm tired.  Can't I just let myself be tired?  Ha - jeez.  Okay so thank God I'm home and I have homework to do for class and I also have some bills to figure out and what else?  I don't know!!  I'm so out of it - oh I know - it was a chance to write on here!!  Hooray.  How are you my sweetest blog?  What is new in your virtual life?  What do you do when I am not here?  Do you rest?  Surf the internet?  Watch porn?  Cyber stalk people?  Write on your own blog!?  Invest your money?  I'm trying to not beat myself up that I am tired.  Isn't that insane?  Not insane that I'm trying not to - insane that I want to beat myself up.  Or I don't know - maybe it's fine.  Everything is fine.  Whaaaaat?  I might need to take another nap.  Great!  Greaaaaat.  Good for me.  Oaky I love you Bluebie bye.