Thursday, July 2, 2015
A little bit up, down
I'm having some swings. Why? I don't know. I'm tired, scared and bored. Bad combo. I did a mi tonight and I have a show tomorrow night and I have a direction to go in. I met with someone and wrote with her and she gave me some pointers - a lot of pointers and it was - upsetting. Basically - I need to work harder. What made me think that wouldn't be the answer? I'm not sure. She also said to just be me - which also isn't what I wanted to hear even though I KNOW that's the best thing. I wanted her to say be someone 15 years younger. Why would that help me? Ugh the guy and I had a row today - it wasn't good. His son is not well - neither of his kids are well. It's terrifying and so scary. Also I don't know - it's so hard being in a relationship. I know - awwww - no but really. I just have such raging intimacy issues. It's so much working things out and feelings and - sometimes I'm just not good at it. Which make me sad. But it's okay. What? I'm so tired right now I need to go to sleep. Love you Bluebie bye.
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