Thursday, March 22, 2018
Well life will be on hold for me for another couple of months. I have to do radiation next and it's going to be once a day, five days a week for a month. I will be very tired and okay OKAY. Yeesh. I didn't want to do it at first but then I heard mastectomy again and I was like FUCK THAT I will do the radiation. I just can't wrap my brain around more surgery and such a - I can't even write it. I can't do it that's all. I will do the radiation. I'm exhausted even though I slept - are you ready for this? 12 HOURS last night. What? Almost the whole way through. I think I woke up to pee but I don't really remember and I woke up around 8:30 and went back to sleep until 10:00. Holy shit right? I was so excited to go back to auditions and run around doing that again. So excited! Now it won't be until JUNE. Oh well I look awful anyway and I don't have any hair, eyebrows or eyelashes. I'm also super puffy and fat from the steroids. It's okay - I must need to rest. There must be a reason I am on hold still. I'm on hold! Holy shit I just got so tired - I'm going to lay down. Love you Bluebie byeeee.