Tuesday, December 13, 2016
Today is another day. Yesterday wasn't so bad - I was in the city for an audition and a seminar and I had a long wait in between the two things which was difficult because it's cold now. I sat in a diner - I shouldn't have spent the money but - well - I did. I went to a meeting and saw a woman who is doing really well. It's amazing to see the program working - it's absolutely beautiful and just astonishing. Seeing someone heal - it's just mind blowing. I'm so happy for her. And she's really being of service too. I have to say that is one of the most amazing things about the city - meetings ALL the time. I guess if I really wanted to I could spend all my time waiting between things in meetings. I guess it would really be nice to actually be able to do something - like write. I need to go to the library. I could also bring my computer! Yes. So anyway - today is a new day and I'm indoors. I got to meditate for a long time this morning and now I'm having tea. I just did the dishes after I made myself some eggs and that just feels glorious to me. I love being at home. Oh my mind is all over the place. I have a show tonight and we are doing our podcast first. Good fucking LORD I am in my head. I had a lot of cheese and pasta - well mostly cheese over the weekend and seriously - I think it gives me brain fog. I felt like I was high yesterday until like 5:30 at night. I still kind of feel that way although meditating helped and I am about to exercise which should also shake out my head. Oh it's so not worth it. It's like having a hang over 3 days later. I am now at a stage of life where I am SO POORLY effected by CHEESE. No not cigarettes - CHEESE. Oh jeez I don't know what it is but anyway man am I sensitive. Okay I am stalling. I don't want to exercise but I must. It's part of my job to be in mediocre shape. Ha! Ugh. Okay - love you Bluebie bye.