How has it been 11 days since I have written? Oh man. I have to say shit is intense and difficult. Not in a super dramatic CRAZY way but just in a constant trickle of shit I can't seem to manage well. I have all these weird side-effects....bloody/runny nose all the time, earache which seems infected but not going away with antibiotics, so tired, GERD. Do you know what GERD is? Mind you I am self-diagnosing myself with this but hold ON THIS IS EXCTING - let me get the definition!
GERD:
Your esophagus is the tube that carries food from your mouth to your stomach. Gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD) happens when a muscle at the end of your esophagus does not close properly. This allows stomach contents to leak back, or reflux, into the esophagus and irritate it.
IS THAT SEXY OR WHAT?
I think what is the hottest part of this description is the "leak back" part. Oh yeaaaaah - leak back. Blech. Oye. I'm also having crazy dreams about waitressing and just using drugs and alcohol. My recurring dream where I remember that even though I go to meetings I drink sometimes and smoke pot sometimes. Always in the dream I say to myself "Oh yeah I drink sometimes" and then I feel awful. This is the GERD's fault. Anyway......I just am not feeling great today. So tired and bald. My eyelashes fell out and for some reason that has been so hard! I guess because the only option is false eyelashes and they look so fake. I don't know but for some reason it's so upsetting. I hope they grow back! My eyebrows also are almost completely gone. It's a rough look! I have to go see the guy at the office. Im late and about to fall asleep. Maybe I will just cloe my eyes for a couple of minutes. Love oyu Bluebie bye.
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