Wednesday, October 3, 2018
Can you handle some good news??
The biopsy I had done yesterday morning came back benign. I cried for 15 minutes while I did the dishes and I have been crying off and on since. I didn't realize how completely terrified I was. Holy shit. Look I know this journey isn't totally over yet but still - holy shit. I took care of myself though - the days before and yesterday. Even today before they called. I ate a huge delicious salad for breakfast and I was about to get to work taking care of different things. I even went to the kids yesterday and did shows last night. And it was crazy raining weather! I just wanted to live and be alive. Holy fuck who I am? I really am a different person now. It's mind blowing. God I am so relieved. It's a beautiful day - I am going to do some work and then take a shower and go to the kids. Go to my meeting tonight and get some sleep tonight. I was up till so late - it took me forever to get home - there were roads blocked off all over the place because of the rain and I drove in circles for like 30 minutes trying to get back home. Okay LOVE YOU BLUEBIE BYE!