Sunday, January 28, 2018
My life is so slow right now as I go through this current round of chemo. I get so tired from doing one thing and all I want to do is sit on the couch and watch tv or read a book. I just want to lay down and read books! I managed to get on the treadmill today and run for 10 minutes. Wait no I jogged slowly. But I did it. Then I walked for 25 minutes and did a teeny tiny bit of yoga. Then I was so exhausted I had to lay down! I feel better now. At least I can do some things on this chemo. The other one I couldn't even get out of bed I was so sick. I just have wicked heartburn and indigestion on this one. Oh man I feel like a pussy complaining about it. People live in war zones. I know that sounds stupid maybe but it's true. This is like a low-grade sickness I'm going through right now and it's making me better. Christ this is making me exhausted writing this. It could be so much worse I guess is what I'm trying to say. It sucks and I'm accepting it sucks and I am doing my best. Now I need to lay down again. I have a show tonight. It will be mellow. Everything is mellow right now. So so mellow. I drive slowly, I take my time, I rest, I lay down, I chill out, I take it easy and I just don't do much. I go to my meetings and yesterday I went to breakfast with my ladies meeting ladies and that was fun. I was so tired afterwards! I came home and wrote thank you cards for 3 hours. It took me 3 hours! Listen I have been tired for YEARS I just kept pushing myself. Now I just am letting myself rest and sleep. Sleep! I sleep a lot! Let's see how long did I sleep last night? 10 hours. 10 hours! Holy shit that's a lot. That's basically how much I sleep every night. Whoa. Okay well good for me right? Anyway so that's what is going on with me. A very slow life. Meetings, chemo, my cancer support group, a show once in awhile, the podcast once in awhile and sleeping. Tv and books. I got a library card! That made my day!! Was just so excited about that! Okay I need to take a shower. Love you Bluebie bye.