So I have always had trust issues and it has occurred to me since this past relationship that before I get into another one I have to work out some of these trust issues. I must say that they will probably not be nearly as prevalent in a healthy relationship with someone who is not an active addict. I think all things are triggered from that - all my issues. Okay so if part of therapy has been to somehow cease my repetition compulsion patterns and then dating addicts would be one pattern I must cease. Also dating people who I do not trust. Boom and done. I mean the first time I got sick to my stomach with this guy I should have just stopped. That's it. So now - now I am going to work on myself - that's it. I have some new goals in mind - so let's do this. What? I wonder what I would think if I read this post randomly? Would I think "What a douche!! Repetion compulsion - what EVER!!!" Maybe - I might. I had to watch 2 new girls and 2 Walking Deads to get past that horrible fucking movie Mulholland Drive. Anywho - goals.
GOALS:
1. LEARN TO TRUST - MYSELF FOR STARTERS.
2. LISTEN TO MY HEART
3. START TAKING DANCE CLASSES AT ALVIN AILEY
4. GET A GREAT MONOLOGUE - 2 GREAT MONOLOGUES
5. GET A NEW JOB
6. GET A NEW JOB
7. GET ANEW JOB
8. GET ANEW JOB.
9. HAVE SEX WITH NORMAN REEDUS.
10. HAVE MORE SEX WITH NORMAN REEDUS.
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