Hiya.

Woke up after working my ass off last night - 2 doubles in a row - prayed/meditated, walked in the park - now I'm getting ready to go meet my bestie who just got back from an amazing trip I can't wait to hear about.  I am awake in the world and I'm not drunk or high.  I miss my dog but I cried and kept walking.  I can pay my July rent now and I'm trying so hard to accept, stay present, be of service (STILL SO HARD), be kind to myself and be loving and gracious.  THAT'S ALL.  LORD HAVE MERCY I AM GROWING I THINK.  I have been taking the subway home and late night after work but I'm doing it to save money and be able to survive.  My money spending has changed so much.  This is the silver lining in having less money for sure.  Okay - I love you my Bluebie Blueb.  Have a lovely day in cyber land.