Push.

I realized after I pushed myself yesterday to get vitamins before therapy - then pushed myself to go to a meeting after therapy - that I can push myself and that this can actually be a good thing.  I think I always thought if I was pushing it was wrong somehow.  You know - maybe in acting that's true but in life - I need to push myself.  That being said I am awake early - it's 6:35 a. fucking m. on a Saturday to go waitress brunch.  But that's ok.  I'm going to push myself so I can be there on time, work and then go see my guy.  Love you Bluebie bye.