It's a hurricane!!

Hurricane Irene - hahahaaa - that's my sister-in-laws name. I love her though. Tall Not So Dark And Creepy woke me up by playing a CD of him playing his Guzheng. I got furious, slammed the door twice, slammed the toilet bowl lid, cursed him out, and then grabbed the dog to walk her and yell at him. Well I go down there and I turned it down - grabbed a piece of mail of mine and heard him laughing with someone and came back up here. How utterly pathetic is this? This is my life? Being woken up by a man who is so narcissistic that he wakes people up (ME) all the time playing music of himself playing a single instrument by himself. I'm telling you he plays videos of himself jerking off while he jerks off - I know it. He PROBABLY plays music of himself playing music while a video plays him jerking off and he jerks off to all of that. I'm pretty sure he turned it back up. I'm so fucked because of this hurricane. I have no money and she cancelled the boutique today PLUS work tonight is cancelled AND last night was so slow that I made 50 dollars. I have 50 dollars until I work again on Thursday. Jesus Christ. I have plenty of food for the dog. I do not have plenty of food for me. I should go to duane reade. I can't believe he woke me up. I really needed to sleep. Okay - it's quiet right now. Okay - I swear I hear that fucking instrument even when he isn't playing it. Jesus - this is so stressful. It's happening to everyone but I am taking it so personally. I feel narcissistic. I'm a MESS. I am a furious, angry mess. I should take a shower before I can't take one. This is scary - it is showing me how on the edge I am still living. I have no food. A little bit of food. I have a bad attitude. I will write more later - bye Bluebie. I love you. P.S. It's starting to rain - a lot.