It's hot as balls.

I already wrote a whole post but it got deleted in the heat. Holy shit it's hooot. I'm at the boutique where the ConEd girl has never come back. I asked the boy to stop smoking outside my window. Calmly and nicely. Miracle. I did a show last night - some comedy and my one good song. It was fun although there was literally no audience - just the people doing the show. Strange to say the least. The musical act that was going on when I left was doing a cover of "I blessed the rains down in Africa" or whatever the name of that song is. I don't think they were trying to be funny and I'm not sure why it is but it seems hilarious to me. I think that maybe it is actually cooling down in here because the sun is finally leaving the window. I'm very proud of myself for finally asking him to stop smoking out back - I realized how much it affecting me after they had been gone for awhile. I believe I was actually going through withdrawals from him NOT smoking outside my window. I realized how different I felt these last couple of days. Fucking GROSS. I mean that I was smoking and not even smoking is so gross. I am sio upset that I didn't know this in Ct. I was such a dick that one day. Okay I am going to really try to keep asking for what I need and want. That is what Her Lady WOnder always says to do. I can not wait to get out of here. I will write more later tonight. I'm so addicted to watching those shows about addiction. It's SO crazy how people are - and sometimes they don't stop. It's so sad. I have to Bluebie. I changed your nick name.