Audition.

I have an audition on Monday for my teacher's teacher - my acting teacher's teacher.  This is the man I auditioned with who said he didn't have room in his class for me and recommended I study with my teacher.  So.  So I am terrified because if I do get into this class it's a whole new level of work and a whole new level of responsibility and a whole new change to my schedule.  I'm so stressed out.  What am I doing?  I'm so all over the place with different projects and just starting this jewelry business.  Okay but I'm okay I guess.  I already prayed &  meditated, read the big book with my sponsor and wrote in my journal.  I'm going to go to a meeting and then clean my apartment and organize things.  Before I go to the meeting I'm going to do some of my alanon step work.  I'm just really uncomfortable, really scared about money and really worried that I'm doing everything wrong.  Also that dude is smoking up a STORM downstairs but since I filed an official complaint with 311 I feel better.  I mean I feel sick from the smoke right now but I took an action and I will take more.  They sent me an email saying I could complain again if nothing changes.  Yeeash - I feel like I am newly sober again what he fuck.  So uncomfortable and struggling.  Well - at least I'm not hung-over and I'm not going to throw up later AND I am living a life - even if it's totally messy right now.  It's the little things although those are probably big things.  Love you Bluebie bye.