Day 1822.

I am so tired lately but - well - I think I'm healing or something.  Anyway I have noticed how much my mind turns to being a victim - I know I've written about this before - but I really recognize it lately.  I see my mind doing it on the subway (I'm a victim of someone chewing - which is annoying but okay I'm no their victim), at the store (someone asks me for a lot of things and leaves the store a mess - again annoying but that's my JOB), ohhhhh and someone not holding the door for me someplace (WHAT is THAT - am I the princess of the fucking world or something???).  So anyway - holy shit I just prayed and meditated and I cried the whole time.  I feel so - like I'm breaking open and healing at the same time - it is so fucking bizarre.  Anyway I have to go to my meeting so I can continue to do my 5 things for this day.  Love you Bluebie bye.