Life On Hold....

Well my MRI was okay but showed a little something and the doctor still wants to do more surgery THEN it would be radiation.  Sigh.  Side note I am watching some comedian on Netflix and he is "offbeat."  I think I used to be "offbeat" when I did comedy but I don't think I am anymore.  Uh oh I am about to get upset.  Why because I'm not offbeat anymore?  Oh good LORD.  Anyway I am going to stop writing now and meditate.  I started eating better and took amazing naps the last 2 days.  My life is on hold, I give up , I am just going to rest, heal, and cook.  I just get happy from cooking.  The eating part is fun too.  Anyway so that's it I give up.  Just taking a time-out from the life part and I'm on some sort of permanent vacation.  I will change my mind about this but for the moment that's what I'm going with.  Meanwhile this "offbeat" guy is funny but I'm not laughing.  Man I'm tired.  Bye.