Thursday, November 19, 2015
Now Im miserable.
I did extra work today - I didn't have to be there till 2:30 - took FOREVER to get myself ready AND then waited for 4 hours - they finally walked us (me and the 5 other losers they hadn't used yet) and after standing there an hour - sent us home. I mean I never even made it to the actual set - just the holding on set. HA. Ugh not even ha. What the fuck am I doing? I cant even imagine being able to make in it show business at this point. I mean - I didn't even get used as an EXTRA today. What the fuck is that? Okay - whatever. Im just terrified about moving and I feel fat, old and tired. So to celebrate all of those feelings I overate Chinese food tonight. I could have really REALLY overate but I didn't - Im only in mediocre pain. Wow - good for me. Ugh anyway - Im just going to go to bed and start over again tomorrow I guess. I really don't know. I don't know anything. At least I got to sleep in and hopefully I wont wake up tonight in the middle of the night again. I have the last 2 nights. Ugh - I just feel so sad and upset. Is it just moving? How do some people do things so easily? Okay - well I can't ust feel my feelings now - I already ate them. I will feel them tomorrow. I just miss being in the flow creatively - Im just not. Or Im not right now - that's all. It's okay. Love you Bluebie bye.
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